More about me...a continuation of previous page..

More about me


While I was laying in that empty field that I had been thrown into, a man who was fishing a short distance away, close enough to hear the crash, came running to my aide. I found out later that he is the son in law of my neighbors across the street. I met him about 4 years later and asked him how close was he to accident scene. He said "close enough to see you fly through the air and hit the ground." He told me he came running and having EMS experience, knew he couldn't touch me. He got to my husband first, as he was closer to him then to me but immediately knew there was nothing to be done. He saw him hit the post, do a half spin circle around the post and slide to the ground. The man (whose name I can't remember) then came to me.. he said I was laying on my stomach, with my face in the dirt, my left arm twisted backward and up over my head. My left leg under me, on a diagonal slant, from my left hip to my right shoulder, also twisted and my foot pointing up toward the sky at my shoulder. He said I was awake and alert and that I wanted to stand up. He had all he could do to keep me still. And when he wouldn't let me up I started swearing at him. He couldn't believe I was even alive much less awake. He very gently lifted my head just far enough to keep my face out if the dirt so I wouldn't suffocate. He said he called for help with his cell phone and I passed out just as the ambulance arrived. When I met him later on, he just kept shaking his head and saying he couldn't understand how I lived through it or that I was even walking.
Oh and the lady that caused the accident?....If I could talk to her, I'd ask her one question. What was she doing sitting at that stop sign for so long? when I think back about it, it's almost like she was waiting for us. I saw her sitting at the stop sign a good 12 or 15 seconds before we even got to the intersection. I know that doesn't seen like a long time but if she had gone when I first saw her, there wouldn't have been a problem. I heard she told the police the sun was in her eyes. It was after 1:00 in the afternoon and it was cloudy. Had the sun been out it would have been behind her. She had three kids in the car. My guess is she stopped at the stop sign, looked, didn't see us cause we hadn't rounded the curve in the road and come into her view right then, but got distracted by something..kids or radio or maybe lighting a cigarette or using a cell phone, and failed to look a second time. By the time she redirected her attention to the road, we were there. She pleaded guilty to the charge of "failure to yield the right of way" and was fined $125.90. NO I am not kidding.
So now you know the story of my life over the past 54years. I have had a surgery every year for the past 8 years (10 altogether as of Oct 2006, 14 since the age of 6) pinched nerves and such.. three on the left leg, two on left arm, two on left foot, two on the spine and one trachial repair...some of the problems are a result of the accident that weren't considered important enough to fix at the time but also from my arthrits, which disorganizes the small bones.. like the ones in your wrists and feet. The small bones in my wrists are so disorganized that I can not bend them. I have severed three tendons in my left wrist, because they rub over a bone that's not suppose to be there. And one severed tendon in my left foot. I know I will eventually end up in wheel chair and become a burden to my kids, my sisters. That will be the day I say goodbye. I am determined to not be a burden to anyone.
I am not usually a whiner about my personal problems, so you won't get pages of poor me complaints. I know there are alot of people that have worse problems then I do. When I see someone paralyzed from the waist or neck down, or have some sort of disease like Parkinson's or something like that.. and they still have the desire to go on, I think to myself "I don't know how they do it. If it was me, I wouldn't want to live like that."